My so called life

It’s been a while since I last posted a blog here. It’s just that I’ve been busy with ruining my entire life and lives of people around me. Anyways, a lot of things happened after the last post that you read here. Especially with my 8 years boyfriend Jessie S. Dela Cruz (Jhay). It’s a long story but to make it short I met someone and I’m on my 26th week right now carrying our baby. Jay and I still have communication though. He is helping me out with my “BUM” life! I made a decision to raise this child without the biological father because the guy I met is undeserving and let me say, a childish, happy go lucky irresponsible guy. I mean, how can you trust the life of your kid to someone who is having an affair with different girls each month I guess. Plus, he is only checking on me and the baby whenever he wants to. He never make it a habit or a point to support us personally, morally especially FINANCIALLY. For some reason, I don’t know why I did such a stupid thing of loving him. I thought he was smart but he is not. I was like drugged or drunk at the same time during the entire relationship. Hell, I don’t know! All I can say is that LOVE is really BLIND. I now changed my perception in choosing the person to love. Well, I tried so hard to fight for our relationship because I never planned of being a single mom from the beginning of time as I can remember. But, he became so harsh to me maybe that’s also one of the reason why I was able to accept and understand things easily. Come to think of it, how can you actually give time and space to a person when he is asking it for years and that he is already up with somebody else. I knew all along that will not make sense. All I did is to make myself believe that what won’t kill you will make you strong and that God is placing all this things to me now because he knows I can be a better person after. I know that this is where God wants me to be and that there’s no such thing as LUCK or BADLUCK. I don’t even believe in KARMA! I read one text message few days ago and it says that if you do bad things, bad things will happen to you because you put yourself in bad situation. There’s no cosmic force that will fuck you over. If you’re a good person, good things will happen. That’s not good karma, that’s because you’re doing good. If you’re doing bad shit, you will pay for it, not that it’s bad karma, but because you’ll get caught with all these bad things that you’re doing eventually.

"Well.. I know, I may look like a Goddess but hey, I’m just human! That’s why I commit mistakes. LOL"

So much with that. Well, since the last time I posted a blog here, I’ve visited a lot of places already. That’s before I got pregnant. Finally, on May 2010 I experienced Baguio City for the first time with Jay of course. An overnight out of town trip. I could’ve enjoyed it more if we stayed a little longer.

Mines view

~May 16, 2010~

Same month, May 2010, my bestfriend, Iane arrived from Canada with her sister so we pursue the vacation we planned at Anawangin and Camara Islands located at Pundaquit, San Antonio in Zambales. A great boat joyride, tipsy night, market invasion, resort hopping, bonfire, powerful sea waves, island escapades and a lot more fun! A perfect place to remove stress from work and hassles of Manila area. It’s just an overnight stay though, but very unforgettable experience. A lot of things to do, so little time.

I experienced a lot of travelling during that year actually. I have been to Angeles City in Pampanga most of my rest days to visit Jay because he was relocated there by their company. After a few months, he decided to move to Tarlac City. I am not sure if the idea was right but it was not so favorable for me though I just say to myself he needed the job and he needs to grow as an individual as well. We visited malls, churches and fine dining restaurants all over the place. Dagupan City in Pangasinan is the next stop. Same reason as well. (JAY) Same old experience of course. He loves it! Being too far from me! waaaaaaaaaaaaa! nerve wracking!!
But it fee;s good to inhale province air, really smells refreshing! I plan to add more escapades after I gave birth. Especially now that Jay is at Vigan, Ilocos. I've never been there. So watch out for more. (Excited Much!) 

After vacation, I decided to enrol a 2-year course at Interface Computer College last November 2010. I chose Information Technology for some reason I don't know. Of course I met a lot of new friends. I wanted to pursue my dream of wearing a black toga in the future that’s why I have the guts to study again with the help of Jay of course. Another reason was, knowing that no one in our family experienced graduating in College so I will pursue this dream. I was able to finish the whole semester already with high grades and I am planning to continue with it after I give birth.

I miss you guys!!

Well, to wrap things up. I can say that I never regret anything that happened in my life so far. I became a more loving daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, wife, mother or whatever you want me as a person. After all that happened I learned to appreciate life more especially the people around me and deal with things most in a positive way. I will continue to live the normal life and raise my child with the help of God. Thanks for taking time to read. Have a great life! I hope to share more experiences. 

For me, the real purpose of having a job is not getting what we want but unselfishly giving what you have. Hard to understand but we do not have to price every work that we give, because we should do it unselfishly without compensation. Especially when we are getting along with the persons that we are working with. Understanding different mood swings, laughing at the corniest jokes!, riding on with the trips that you don’t seem to enjoy all your life. But of course being with this company I am in right now, brings my family more close to me. I learned to appreciate my loved ones more that I am never before. Fells like I’ve found my second home. I realized that the people I meet have a purpose. Some we’re put there to test me. Some would just like to use me, some would teach me and some would teach me and some would bring out the better, if not the best in me. Some would even cause pain and heartache. But one must learn to move on. So I let go of the people who cannot treat me right and I hold on to those who love me back and see my worth. We do not only stay in a job because of what it is, but because of what we are when we are doing it. The fact that we are now out of the comfort zones of our schools, “ it’s really a different world out here! “ we might say. Of course it’s not also about always receiving something in return. In reality, “ give me what I want and I’ll give you what you want! “ right? It should be about loving our job despite the difficulties and pressures that it gives. ( Specially if you cannot book!!! ) Hassle for life! Hehe.. Yes! Everyone is entitled to be stupid; but some abuse the privilege. If you cannot solve it, it is not a problem. It’s a reality. But above all that, it’s really about loving what we do because it is what makes us happy.

à FM in cabs

à midnight coffees

à birthday pizzas

à accentuated English

à dashing clothes

à Irate customers

à fight for appraisals

àSunrise
beer

à so much money, so little time

à die hard friendships



people call it call centers..

But we call it LIFE!

Hi peeps!!!
I'm back! Hehehehe....
Just want to share with you this summer escapade we just had last April 18. I was so busy so I don't have the chance to post this entry kaagad. Busy saan??? Hehehehe... Sa kung anu-anu lang!! Anyways, to start with we left our house pass 5am na ata I'm not sure kasi wala kong tulog the night before our outing. I went out partying pa ata haha joke! Baka nababasa ni Jaja ko e hindi niya alam un! So sa van tulog ako same with my friends na kasama ko sa gimmikan that night. Dami pa namin sinundo para maisabay sa van papunta sa resort. Daming dinaanan so almost 8am na when we reached the venue. After paying the entrance fee we get a cottage na medyo kalakihan din to accomodate all of us at pwede matulog in case na di kayanin ng mga lakwatserang puyat! Hehehe..

• ** THE COTTAGE***

So ayan! Mejo ok naman diba? Accessible pa yan sa maraming bagay dahil malapit sa pool, CR at ihawan. More or less there are 8 swimming pools ang resort na toh! My top favorite? Wave pool!!!!! Ashteeeeggggg.... Swear! Hehehehe... Enjoy ako promise! May nalalaman pa silang iba ibang style ng pag-wave grabeh to the highest level hehe..

Ganda ganda talaga diba? Hehehe...
We even took a picture near the entrance of the resort.

Hi guys, nothing much to share wala lang magawa kaya heto nag-update ng blog. hehehe....

Well, about that picture it was taken at Antipolo Shrine nagpunta kami don bago umalis si Bhebe. While the mass is going on there is this lady na feeling ko e napaka-suplada. Nainis siya sa kid brother ko kasi he is so malikot. Anyway, after ng mass we light some candles at the back of the church and we go up to explore the whole place. We also touched the dress of Our Lady of Antipolo. Obviously, the main reason is for my Bhebe to have a safe trip in going to Singapore and also to seek help in finding a job there. Sa labas ng church madaming nagbebenta ng kung anu-ano na tipong handa silang harangin ka para magkabenta lang which is somehow annoying. May mga fastfood chains nearby at napili naming kumain sa Mcdo request ng kid bro ko!
Ang bhebe ko? He is already staying in Singapore for 1 month and 8 days but until now there's still no progress in his applications because of that F***ing recession. To make it exagerrated, na-fufrustrate na siya ng sobra!! As in everytime na magkausap kami online nag-seself-pity na siya. Kahit anong gawin kong alo sa kanya wala pa din. Good thing naiisip niyang sabihin sa kin ung mga ganong bagay dahil hindi niya un nasasabi sa iba. I'm able to understand him better kasi I know how it feels naranasan ko din un noon nung hindi ako matanggap sa work. Kaya sa mga taong malakas kay Bro please include him in your prayers. One of the reason why he is so affected kasi sabi niya sakin is that he is getting old but still dont have any achievements. OO graduate nga siya (wala lang graduate lang!) ganon ung feeling. Anyway, so much for that. I know there's a time for everything and there is a season for every purpose. Kung ano man meaning non ewan ko sa tatay ko pero kasama lagi yang mga katagang yan pag nag-sesermon siya sa bahay hehe..

heto naman pic namin on the way to Antipolo hahaha...

Actually kasama din namin si MAMA at ang pinakamabait kong bunsong kapatid na hindi sobrang hyper...

Heto sila...

Hi, I just created this blog today because I feel like sharing my experiences and feelings.
I intentionally offer this blog to my long time bf. It's been 5years, 6months and 21 days now. I can still remember the first time we met. Anyway, the main reason is that he will be going to Singapore on the 28th day of February he will try his luck in finding a job there. TAKE NOTE! That's our 5year and 6th month anniv. huhu..... It's so hard to think that I will soon experience my life without him.

Basta bhe just give your best in everything that you do and I'll be right here for you. I will love you in every way that I can. Just always take care of yourself dahil wala ako don para alagaan ka! Anyway, malaki ka na! But 1 thing is for sure... I will miss you soOoOoOo much!!! Enjoy Singapore!

San toh????
This is the last time na.....

Alam mo na!
hahaha....
I will miss that! =)

Francis Magalona - Cold Summer Nights Lyrics

I keep on blaming my self
I should have eaten my pride
how can i convince you
its just a matter of time

many times i've hurt you
with my foolish ways oh girl
now i know i have to pay the price

is there a way for u to turn around,
turn around and come back baby
ohh baby cant u see

CHORUS:
its been cold summer nights since we drifted apart
cold summer nights since you walked out that door
cold summer nights here on my own
coz i miss you baby, i need you here

RAP:
cold summer nights girl, i really miss you
you rocked my world
i wanna touch you and kiss you
its my fault
i never called you at home
i'm on the phone, wishing you could call
i'm all alone
is there a way for you to turn around and
come back to me
i hope you understand
that i'm your man and together we can
kiss and make up
'coz you know i cant stand